I am always in a great rush. I have been all of my life a person who burns energy like it was going out of fashion. I was giving this some thought this morning as I began to prepare myself for a week of running in the mountains. I love these days but I am also conscious of the fact of the raised level of danger from the normal daily running I do here at home.
I run in the mornings and walk in the afternoon/early evening then fall into bed exhausted to be ready for the next day. I became very aware of this after reading the blog of Sherry, Conservatively Bohemian. So I sat down and gave thought, here is the bones of my time of thinking, of what stops me being all I want to be and the artist I dream of being.
I think the first thing is this rushing and trying to fit things into something else I am doing. I plan a walk and set out. During the course of the walk I take out my watercolour box and do a painting, but all the time my mind is on the clock and the time I have yet to walk. The end result is a bad walk and a bad painting. I need to learn that when walking I am walking and when painting I am painting. I need to schedule if I want to do both.
Next. If we continue to repeat a story in our head, we eventually believe that story and embrace it – whether it empowers us or not. So the question is: Does my story empower me? Do I place my mistakes in my mind; where their weight may crush my current potential. Instead, I must place them under my feet and use them as a platform to view the horizon. I must remember, all things are difficult before they are easy. What matters the most is what I am starting to do now.
I also need to stop being s hard on myself. There are plenty of people willing to do that for me. I need to do my best and surrender the rest. Tell my self, “I am doing the best I can with what I have in this moment. And that is all I can expect of anyone, including me.” I need to be proud of everything that I do, even the mistakes. Because even mistakes mean I am trying.
Lastly; stop waiting for tomorrow; I will never get today back. It doesn’t matter what I’ve done in the past. It doesn’t matter how low or unworthy I feel right now. The simple fact is that I am alive and that makes me worthy. Life is too short for excuses. I have to; Stop settling. Stop procrastinating. Start today by taking one courageous step forward. If I am not sure exactly which way to go, it is always wise to follow my heart.
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